Just destory my earphone... =(

What a day what a day..hust madwe my earphones spoilt... =( Sign...Today dunno why everything seems so so damn wrong ARGGGGG...This round is not about feelings but circumstances around...have not been feeling at all good since this morning....

Again another new phase in life...Which i have to adapt..Never once in life i had so many changes in a short span of time..I know in all my problems mine is the least important and all..But how come i see it so heavily?? Where there are the times in which i really faced something that i cannot handle...All my struggles i can handle...it is how i see it i think?? is it not??

Today Aunty Florence last day...I dun feel happy at all..Not because of the work load (in a way yes i am scare of waht is to come but i belive with enough rest iam able to pick up..) but it is her presense in the office....Now there is one big hole in the middle between me and my boss...back to being a doughnut again....ARGGGgg this entire thing suck!!!

but then again i guess it is time for her to take life easy at this point of time...I wil still miss her moring greetings saying silly things to her and making her laugh...But now that she is no longer with the firm...i guess i have to laught to myself..and talk more to rashidah..

I have to learn the art of talking to myself alot... I have to feed my brains with alot of info of things to keep my mind from wondering be it music or anything else...i guess...
It is not going to be easy this round...Alot of things sounds alien to me at this point of time..iam back to square one but at the very least there is a curve in the square NOT totally square..Thasnkfully...Rb please be patient with me ok??

Thanks alot Florence too...And of cos Mummy...ops now then mention mummy ..

that so much to my life as at now...Loads of things to learn on monday but tt is for another day..and another time....

God Bless...have a happy holiday too.. =)

Leaving...

Leaving is heartache...No one will understand every individual...No one will be there in the quiet..No one will be there to understand...only in the silence of music..there will be that one song to guide you thru..

Is this a poem i don't know is this is a song it is not...is this something that is in my mind? Yes..The songs that went thru...So many things happened within a shot span of time say 3 months...

But what can we do?? This is life we got to move on?
Sh** another Emo post aagin...sign..why is this so?? So very Arggggggg

stop here dunn o waht to say le....

tk gd care

I passed...19/05/2010 Wednesday 0930hrs BBDC

On the 19 of May 2010..I finially did it...I finially passed my Driving test and got my licence to Drive after 4 attempts..It was a totally humbling experience for me...

I will Like to thank the following who had been there to encourage me

They are

1. God
2. Dad
3. Mum
4. Joel
5. Zhen Wei
6. Chucky
7. Augustine
8. Wee Chong
9. Louis
10. Prem (Iam sorry....)
11. Lil sis
12. Augustine
13. Shu Min
14. PJ
15. Keith
16. Alvin
17. JY
18. Jimmy Yap (intro by Chucky My driving instruction 1 year 3 months =) )

Thanks so much for just being there ohoh And Chucky for introducing Jimmy to me..My driving instructor....Thanks alot for this one year and three months..sorry to put you thru so many engine stalls and wide turing adn all that..It is all over now i apprecaite your gudience alot...

Thanks Chucky for being there too....And louis for your support and everyone who had pull me thru without you all i will be nothing..

dad took me for a ride..IT was scary will cover more on that later..now iam tired...tiem to rest

God Bless you all....

sincerely,

john

I forgotton...

Just as i was about to write my blog my mind went totally blank not because i didn't want to blog but it is just one of the day where by my taught ran away from me ARGGGGgggggggggg...

COme back to me taughts!!!! I need you to help me finish this blog haha....

Well i guess as far as i can recall...It is somkething pleasent and not so pleasent maybe as i type things will just come back to me...I hope fingers crossed thou..course i realli cannopt recall..
Oh NO!!! This is bad...not god at all....sob sob...

Life is much better..I pluck up the courage to say a few things to Pg and seems me and louis are back as friends that is really nice..I thank God for the people who encouraged me thru out this journey...
Will i embark on a new journey or rather a new chapter in life?? Soon?? Will my taughts be the same or as screw as LAST time?? What is the road ahead for me??
I am taking my driving test the FOURTH time FOR goodness sake haha.. =) Dunno to laugh or cry.

A new course in August?? A new beginning...
To all the people who was along with me this journey i thank you..Without YOU ALL i will not be here where iam I thank God for each and everyone of you...

Sorry for the pain and the effort i will try to not let it go to waste..Thanks alot for beliving..God Bless you!!!

see you all soon...

john

When everything else fails.....

Everybody needs inspiration

Everybody needs a song

Beautiful melody, when the nights so long

Cause there is no guarantee

That this life is easy

When my world is falling apart,

when there is no light to break up the dark

That's when I look at you

When the waves are flooding the shore and I can't find my way home anymore

That's when I look at you

When I look at you

I see forgiveness, I see the truth

You love me for who I am

like the stars hold the moon

Right there where they belong and I know I'm not alone

When my world is falling apart,

when there is no light to break up the dark

That's when I look at you

When the waves are flooding the shore and

I can't find my way home anymore

That's when I look at you

Just like kaleidoscope colors that cover me

All I need every breath that I breathe

Don't you know you're beautiful

When the waves are flooding the shore and I can't find my way home anymore

That's when I look at you

You appear just like a dream to me.

It is office hours and i am blogging can you believe it...This song left a very lasting impression on me and i find the need to blog it...If not i will will forget what to say...

If time could re-arrenge itself i will not let things happen they way there were...If only...

Life is about if only...if only i did this i did not do that i did this...

Why not at that poinnt of time say this and not live to regret it

WHY!!!!!!!!!! but it is all too late...the verdict had been passed already....

it is stated already..Full stop....

You have your adgenda i have mine....You have your piorties i have mine..

you have your carrer i have mine...That was it all said and done

IF ONLY!!!!!!!!!! If only there was only...i will not let things turn out the way they were before.... =(

Bro IAM SORRY>>..... =...( Sorry if u could only hear me....

Sorry for shouting at you too....